The Luckest Person in the World II

It happens again. This idea that I can make luck happen based on a superhuman ability has comeback to becoming the circle of interest and wonder for me and my life. I could be apophenia or coincidence I do know but my intuition, which I respect says there's more to it than basic arising fortune that come out of 'raw nature'. I feels like more than that, I feels internal, like a mental ability, yes, like a psychic power. Of course there is the whole fact that I want superhuman abilities and that this could seemingly be my desperation in a, like I said, apophenic method of understanding. Yet this doesn't stop me, its more of a faith and, as I said, an intuition.

On a Saturday, in fact two Saturdays, I was bored, I had a bored friend, we decided to be bored together at his and see what happens, maybe the Internet gets a percentage funnier, maybe I become twice as interest based on what was happening, who knows. Anyway, people came and poker was decided. Texas Hold'em if it makes an different, point was I knew how to play and it was a while since I did, I was in. We played some games and in the end I was winning, it felt odd, me just winning bit by bit, it was then that all-in was used in order to finish the whole game that I ended up winning it all. Like was a big high for me and my believe in my psi-luck. This however was nothing compared to blackjack. I'm sorry but if some three 21s in a row doesn't seem lucky you're a try pessimist but that's what happened, a few 21s and some blackjack and I was hitting it really well. Again, big high, psi-luck seeming confident.

On Sunday morning before working I decided to look up probability manipulation as in the superpower not as a paranormal/supernormal physical phenomenon and found some interesting theories on it especially on an X-men-based-wiki. In particular was an idea which made sense to my mind even if it was a seeming stench. The idea that a person's mind can affect the quantum state of things, breaking down all the possible outcomes in order to get the one they are mentally going for. For, well most of the week the idea of me having the ability to telekinetic manipulate the quantum state of events, objects, overall; outcomes.

On Thursday the whole seeing if I could influence the odds came back to me when I introduced a game of poker and won a multiple number of times, a large amount of times in a row as well. It was sensational and would've been especially good if I won the 'all in' which didn't happen, maybe I need more practice on this whole luck business or maybe something was influencing things much more than I was. There was after all a bit of cheating against me.

However, on Saturday explaining this to my friends they all seemed to think I was mad, first of my saying that the flow of cheating affect the quantum state of the cards, as well as asking why I didn't just correct the quantum state to its appropriate accuracy and then that I was using 'quantum' when it had nothing to do with quantum. This second criticism, for some reason got to me so I decided to look into quantum luck and looked into so basic, not-too-advanced stuff on the Internet, basically an article, a blog entry and then back to the comic solutions.

Today I considered the different theories to explain probability manipulation in fiction and there was some interesting ideas I remembered including 'probability fields' from the Marvelverse, 'accelerated probability' from the Heroesverse and the supernatural approach in the DC universe.

Psiaries #1: Time

The psiaries were my first project regarding my thoughts on paranormal activity but were cut short due to lack of knowledge and experience. Although short, the psiaries do have something to them and I thought about sending my first entry off as a post today.

Week 1, Day 1 15.10.2007

Today is the start of all this, and I am really not sure how it will travel. Time has always been an interest of mine, perhaps due to the fact of how strange it is, as well as esoteric. And here we is where we truly start in the observing of esotericism - all that is 'inner' in terms of knowledge. These are things that in my personal definition are "what the general public lack in knowing, either by scepticism, difficulty of understanding, or due to faults which have been taught to many of them and the trivia which they lack knowing.

The thing about time, today, is that it seems 'chaotic' in its motion, its flux especially in its perception. The perception of time is well-known for its instability, as most might say this is down to our minds. Understanding this might be helpful in understanding abilities like tachypsychia and chronokinesis. Looking at the temporal-dimension and its 'tempus fugit' phenomenon can perhaps helps in the bizarre ideals of time travel in all forms. I have made my own ideas of time travel from supernatural time-dilation to quantum-physical-chronokinesis which uses ideas like Schrodinger's cat and particle knowledge towards the fluctuation of different spatial-temporal areas.

The Power of Positivity

In these days of warped attitude where news headlines exclaim of terrible things which are happening around the world; terrorism, disease, unemployment, crime and injustice, it might seen not that surprising that the abstract and the thoughtful have ran from all the darkness that media and culture string together and have form their own circles of comfort. In circles of psychology and occultism, however, an ideology has come into play as a projection of hope against these cultural shadows, It is known as 'positive thinking', the ability to have a good optimistic life by having an equally optimistic attitude.

A number of us have heard hypothetical stories of people who hold low self-esteem, become late for that special job interview, stress so much that they forget to clean their coffee-stained shirt, tense up and stutter at the beginning of each sentence they make during the interview that, as I've stated, they were late for and end up getting that important call back saying "We're sorry but...". Yet how true is all this? Does optimism in the soul lead to a life of enjoyment and reward? Are positive thinkers the people who get the girl/guy they've wanted, earn money like they desired by having a carrier and not just a job, basically live the live they wanted to? Maybe positive thinking is the golden rule to helping in the 'game of life'. Be happy, make other people happy, be hopeful and share the hope. As Eddie Izzard said (and by said I mean in paraphrasing (and by paraphrasing I mean his concept my wording)) Jesus travelled the Earth to say that life is about becoming moral, relaxing a bit and overall being groovy and we twisted all that positivity with with our own negativity; with propaganda, fear and depowerment of freedom. Yet, to think positive doesn't seem like a way of cheating life. Who is to say that a good life is based on misery and not getting what you want, who you want? Why should I and others go through days in a depressive and pessimistic disappointment of what could be? How easy is it to say that living without hope isn't living at all?

Personally, I see myself as having a positive attitude, not the best one but relatively good and I see myself as pretty happy with it all. There are some change I would like, no life is close to perfect no matter how much it shiny against the sun but I feel I can understand what positive thinking is all about.

The Luckest Person in the World

It has something that I've been thinking about for a long time. Longer than I can ever remember. At first I thought it was the complete opposite, I thought it was all going downhill for me and it came to the point of which I believe that it was in my fate to be a misfortune individual. However, things have changed for me and now the change has become its own explosion of intuition and random pointing to the sparks of usual, personally-seemingly improbable events.

A few good booster packs, some out of the ordinary moves, even if I lost the games I play there seems to be a move that questions the point in probability.

In January of this year (2009), I great snow sleet covered Britain and I have still come to believe that it was all down to one day; one day where I was questioning my own potential. I walked around the campus, no enthusiasm to get to any destination, seeing what came at what time. There was rain quite a bit, something of an annoyance to me. I am usually fine with rain but it was so erratic, so irritating at the time and I had just walked out of an exam, the post-event stress was perhaps tightening me up. So I used the rain as target practice, I wasn't sure what I was going to get and I was a mild bit skeptically due to my reasoning and questioning but I put that one side in order to the truth and faith of my own potential, my own will.

I tried to make the rain go away but only perhaps the slightest bit of stabilisation was in place, it was still raining. It was then that I considered that I didn't have the potential to stop the rain but I wasn't giving up and decided to see if I could make it not rain by changing the rain, transmuting it into something more probable, like for example release it all in a minute super-pour so that it could stop after that minute. I aligned my thoughts tried to make my own luck and after I was in the zone of things, the rain stopped and became snow.

Snow was now flowing down with gravity and not a trace of rain was to be seen, only the rain water which had pooled on the grounds. I was in shock, amazement, it seemed like a success, a true success indeed. Now I believe that I can make my own luck in some subconscious, mental form. The problem with this is that I don't know how it works how and why it switches on, was it down to stress? Is it fate or synchronicity? Is it luck or parapsychological? There are a lot of questions especially since it would seem hard to experiment. Interesting enough the idea of stress causing this superhuman luck has inspired me, I need to do a psychological experiment for my work and well what with the idea that stress can make people lift cars or dodge bullets, maybe stress does hold its own paranormal secrets.

What is a Psi-File

The psi-files are a group of topics which relate to my interest. belief and observations/investigations into the psychological, philosophical and paranormal. It looks into the unexplained, the curious and the idea of 'the unseen world'. Basically this blog is my own case of X-Files

When I was young I was somewhat skeptical, interested in science and how it all worked but then things changes. Maybe the science was getting so unusual that the paranormal was getting more understand or maybe I was getting bored of limitations and practical evidence having to be behind everything but whatever it is I came to been more fascinated by the paranormal. What started as a fear and concern of an over-active imagination became something of a passion and way of life.

Now I have decided to keep some thoughts and records and log-like experiences on his blog to remember, focus and try to understand.